So I may be going slightly crazy. I know thats not news, but the latest development might be. I'm listening to Christmas music. I can't say why. Maybe its the cooler weather? Maybe its because I'm tired of all the music I have. (I haven't really bought any new music since before the mish...I can't justify spending money on music when the radio is free and I have school to pay for). I've dug out all my Christmas music and I'm working my way through it. I even went to the broadcast page of past Christmas Devotionals. Last Christmas I watched the devotional and the choir performed 'O Holy Night' It was such a powerful song, I even started to get emotional, which doesn't happen too often. I wanted to hear that song again, once just was not enough! Shortly afterwards I had a miracle. My grandma sent me a Mo-Tab CD, it had O Holy Night on it. It wasn't the exact same song, but the same version with a soloist. Close enough for me. But now that I have access to the internet I found it and copied onto my computer. I love Christmas! Why can't we have it like twice a year? But I guess it wouldn't be the same if it was in June...something to do with snow.
I also like Halloween. Why you ask? Because that is the start of candy season. I love it when chocolate is on sale and it will last clear until the cabury mini eggs (my favorite) for Easter, at which I will bare a sad farewell to candy season.
Trials. I'll admit life has seemed to intensify lately. I can't exactly put my finger on why. I just feel some opposition. Once again I am grateful for a mission. I understand trials slightly better now. Even though its not easy, I understand its for a couple of reasons. A) I need to grow. This lack of growth the past six months feels odd, after such an intense amount of growth and change in Colorado, has felt different. I know I needed a break, but now I'm ready. B) I know I'm where I'm supposed to be, doing what I'm supposed to be doing. Satan tends to not like that for some reason. So when he's not happy....tries to make us less happy. And finally C) Something good must be coming! Storms and hard times always come before blessings. I'm determined not to let it get to me. Things will work out, they always do. I just must have faith and hope.
I'm still catching up on missing all the mormon messages.I really liked this one by Elder Holland. He was speaking to himself as a young father who was trying to take care of his family. Now he speaks to me muddling my way through life (and you doing whatever it is you are doing)
"Don't you quit! You keep walking! You keep trying. There is help and happiness ahead. Some blessings come soon. Some come late. Some don't come until heaven. But for those that embrace the Gospel of Jesus Christ, they come. It will be alright in the end. Trust God, and believe in good things to come."
Keep your faith and hope alive. The best is yet to be! (another favorite talk by Elder Holland.) Well I must get to bed. I took too long of a nap and now I'm up too late. Good thing when I go to church on Sunday it will be in Smithfield which means church is at 9 I think. (why did they change the perfect time of 10:30?) That will get me back in regular sleep mode. Good night one and all!
PS I'm also discovering speeches.byu.edu could be dangerous...
Another great song that your post reminded me of is called "Before the Morning" by Josh Wilson. Which Holland talk were you talking about?
ReplyDeleteIts called "The Best is Yet to Be" I wrote that and then realized that 'hey thats another talk by Elder Holland'. Its in the January '10 Ensign. I really liked what he taught about Lot's wife, especially since I read it at the close of my mission. It helped me to resolve to glance back to remember what I've learned, but to move forward to this new RM life. The best is yet to be, there is much waiting for me in this life, it doesn't end when my mission ends.
ReplyDeleteCool song, I like it. You might be the one to introduce me to a new world of music!